Monday, March 30, 2009

Sometimes...



Sometimes I feel this way about my life.


I can't go back,


And I really wouldn't want to anyway.


I can't go forward,


That requires more effort than I am able to give right now.


Turning to the right or left


Means leaving my current (dis)comfort zone.


And sometimes I'd like to stop...


But have you ever told a two year-old and a six month-old that


"Mommy needs a break"


And had it make the slightest difference?


I love the saying


"Wherever you are, be there."


So I think I'll just be right here where I am-


And I'll love it!


Not long before he passed away, Elder Joseph B Wirthlin gave a beautiful talk at General Conference, and he shared some advice his mother gave him as a youth: "Come what may, and love it." I have often had that in my little mind lately, as I've been trying to manage some of the 'what may' that came to my life. Sometimes it's hard to love!

Before I start to sound ungrateful, please understand that there are myriad 'what mays' that came to me that I love with all my heart. I can feel myself dimly groping toward a concept that I imagine many of you already have nailed down: I don't have a great deal of control over what comes, but I have a LOT of control over how I handle it.


So, to my each of my dear friends and family- thank you for helping me to hang on! To Wyatt and Jana (and Skeeter)- hang on and be patient, Mommy is a work in progress but oh, how I love you! And to my sweetheart Lee: thanks for hanging on to me when it would have been easier to run away screaming!

Come what may [buy donuts as needed] and LOVE IT!


10 comments:

Melissa Durtschi said...

Donuts are part of the deal!?! Why didn't anyone tell me... Now I'm sure that will make all the difference. Thanks for the info!!

(And thank you for hanging in there. You are an inspiration...RIBBIT RIBBIT!!!!)

tiff snedaker said...

LOL at that picture. Isn't that just how life is? Yeah, kids don't care if you feel like you can't do it one day or another. They just want to be fed and loved. It doesn't matter to them, right? Keep going!

Marianne said...

Hang in there, Mel! This reminds me of the serenity prayer. Let's see if I can remember it right...

God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change
The courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference

Love you!
PS- the word verification word is shists and that makes me laugh.

Tara said...

I know EXACTLY how you feel. And all you can do is sit there and decide how to react to a situation-make sure it's good! Miss you and hang in there!

Erin said...

I know how you feel sweetie! Like the other day when all I felt like doing for a while was crying... and so I did. This too shall pass... in like 20 years. You can hold on that long right?

Marianne said...

XOXO. That's all.

Clinton and Jessica said...

snickers and brownies......love ya... you are the cutest mom and I read your blog and sometimes its jut what I needed and am honestly given courage to get through my days .....
Just be happy where we are right.. :)

Steph and Ty said...

definitely buy donuts when needed and flowers are nice to...

Melinda said...

I love reading your blog. It reminds me of a conversation you probably don't even remember, that you and I had in a practice room getting ready for fall auditions before our sophomore year when I asked you why you weren't a music major. Just well thought out, well worded facts. I love the tongue in cheek cantor, the refusal to take yourself too seriously, and your determination to really love whatever comes your way. It makes me wonder, were we seriously too busy to become good friends in college? What a bummer. Thank goodness for blogs :-) Maybe we could get together sometime over the summer if I get a chance to come to Rexburg?

Lainie said...

Great post, Mel! I also love that talk by Elder Wirthlin. LOVE LOVE LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU!